I have fibromyalgia. Everytime I think, oh thank glob it’s settled, it flares soon again. Sitting is uncomfortable, the feeling is like corkscrews being driven into my hips. The pain radiates into my legs, my back. Lying down is a finely tuned activity; where I can’t lie on my left side too long, because my hips feel bruised. At the moment, my back hurts and it may be a more genuine muscle problem rather than just fibromyalgia. To touch my hips is to feel pain, my back has tender points. My back is shooting out pains I don’t understand why or where they are coming from. I feel like I have permenant pmt pains, even my pelvic/ groin thingy muscles hurt to touch. And I can’t stress enough how much it hurts to have physio on those muscles. My legs are restless, and painful, doing night shifts and being awake and having to sit for hours, is driving me crazy. As is being expected to come to work in my free time for training, where I have to Sit and endure more pain, when I don’t even see the damn value of my training. I will not be going to work on my days off. My nights will come and go. My flares will come and go. And I’m sure, my sanity will come and go. I want to give up so badly.